I Swallow not Spit
Dun be mistaken by the title, I'm not giving away free blowjobs.
Nowadays, I've notice that I swallow my words a lot. Gone are the time I truely speak my mind, now even with close friends I think twice before I open the hole in my head.
Subjects I swallow :
Insults and sacastic comments
There's a point of time where I have sort of lost control. Insults and sacastic comments comes so naturally to me that I can't differentiate if I'm joking or not anymore. In the process I've pissed off many people and lost a friend or two. I couldn't blame them for taking the joke seriously cause at that point of time I might not be joking at all. My apologises to those I've pissed. And if I've lost u as a friend, be glad to know that ur sacrifice is not in vain. But had made me a better person.
Work
I'm starting to realise that confidential has a true meaning to it. I'm so glad of the many times I manage to keep my mouth shut about work when I thought of the repercussions if I didn't. Truely confidential stuff I will pretend that I've never heard of it. When ever I mention about work and I tell my friends its confindential, they will say "ya la like all the stuff u said is confidential..." So Since it doesn't benefit me to tell them, and they don't really seem interested, I might as well don't say.
Personal View
I used to like sharing my personal view about stuff, especially when its against or should i say different from others opinon. I find that discussion will breed new thoughts. But these days I'm too tired to prove my point any more. Personal opinons are usually reply with, "who are u to tell me what to think/do" ,"I'm only listening to you because I'm polite enought not to shut you up" and "who cares who u think?". It takes time and effort to share my view but others doesn't really welcome it, so I might as well don't say.
Explanations
I feel that, for some reasons, I don't play by other's rules anymore. i don't reall feel the need to explain my actions. So things are don't and that's it. No explanations needed. i'm just me.
Gossips
I've seen how friends gossip behind each others back and in the end small groups are form to secretly hate each other. I can't be bothered to be in this "little groups" anymore. I personally felt that opinons and hate grew strong as gossips increase. Sorry, count me out next time.
Seems that slience really is golden : D
Nowadays, I've notice that I swallow my words a lot. Gone are the time I truely speak my mind, now even with close friends I think twice before I open the hole in my head.
Subjects I swallow :
Insults and sacastic comments
There's a point of time where I have sort of lost control. Insults and sacastic comments comes so naturally to me that I can't differentiate if I'm joking or not anymore. In the process I've pissed off many people and lost a friend or two. I couldn't blame them for taking the joke seriously cause at that point of time I might not be joking at all. My apologises to those I've pissed. And if I've lost u as a friend, be glad to know that ur sacrifice is not in vain. But had made me a better person.
Work
I'm starting to realise that confidential has a true meaning to it. I'm so glad of the many times I manage to keep my mouth shut about work when I thought of the repercussions if I didn't. Truely confidential stuff I will pretend that I've never heard of it. When ever I mention about work and I tell my friends its confindential, they will say "ya la like all the stuff u said is confidential..." So Since it doesn't benefit me to tell them, and they don't really seem interested, I might as well don't say.
Personal View
I used to like sharing my personal view about stuff, especially when its against or should i say different from others opinon. I find that discussion will breed new thoughts. But these days I'm too tired to prove my point any more. Personal opinons are usually reply with, "who are u to tell me what to think/do" ,"I'm only listening to you because I'm polite enought not to shut you up" and "who cares who u think?". It takes time and effort to share my view but others doesn't really welcome it, so I might as well don't say.
Explanations
I feel that, for some reasons, I don't play by other's rules anymore. i don't reall feel the need to explain my actions. So things are don't and that's it. No explanations needed. i'm just me.
Gossips
I've seen how friends gossip behind each others back and in the end small groups are form to secretly hate each other. I can't be bothered to be in this "little groups" anymore. I personally felt that opinons and hate grew strong as gossips increase. Sorry, count me out next time.
Seems that slience really is golden : D
posted by monotone at 10:55 AM
0 Comments:
Post a Comment
<< Home