Battles of the night

~Under the warm blanket of dark clouds, the city sleeps.
the soft glowing night light hangs in the sky,
shining the way for travellers of the night.~

Round 1- Cabs
Cabs roam the night like warriors of the battlefield
Every min is money.
Its like a situation in an RPG where u choose to fight either many low level creatures or a few high level ones.
Midnight cab drivers are the risk takers, choosing the high level night passengers.
Each costs 1.5 times the experience.
Fury burns in their yellow light, speeding down the road,
Time is running short, day will break soon....

~Hang out your coat of tireness,
Let your weariness fade,
Free yourself in the state of unconciousness,
You will feel fresh again.~

Round 2 - Cats
Their eyes glow in the dark, these creatures of the night.
Discarding their cute appearence in the day, morphing back to their true self.
Combatants, predators, rapist, they are,
the street at night belongs to them.
Hear their war cries in the dark, listening to the sobbing of the rape victim,
Once the sun rises they became cute felines again, resting from last night's action.

~Return to your inner child, your bed is your womb,
feel the unconditional love of your mother once more.
Safe, you feel again,
sleep peacefully, for you are well protected.~

Round 3 - Internal
Night time is the worst for the broken hearted,
You never felt more lonely then now.
Lying alone on you huge empty bed,
only your pillows can fill the cavity in your heart.
Sweet moments became memories......
memories that leaves a bitter taste in your mouth.

~As one sense fades, the others heighten.
Hearing peaks in the serenity of the night.
Listen to the slience, its deafening.
Your sight may fail you but trust your ears...
and learn to trust the darkness.~

Round 4- Strangers
Resist eye contact in the night,
Keep your head low, mine your own business.
Never trust strangers at night, you must have heard enough ghost story to tell you so.
Homeless people, drunkards, theives, robbers, rapist, perverts and prostitutes are a common crowd.
Look at them straight in the eye, can you tell them apart?
Suspicion chokes the air at night, the atmostphere is filled with mistrust.
Does darkness fills us with evil, or is our evilness just covered by the light?

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I often travel in the night.
I'm no different from the cockroaches wandering aimlessly in the dark.
The night is an alternate relm of the day,
Take a walk at night.... you will love it.

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Sorry

I want to write but words don't come out,
I thought of a peom but it doesn't rhyme.
Everything is fine... but something is wrong.
Sorry... i really tried... i really did....

Rethink , Revise, Reevaluate

A friend of mine recently asked me what's my religion. To which i replied "fallen christian".
So my friend ask me, " Why did you stop believing in christianity?"
After a long paused I answered, "I.... er... I've forgotten.."

There are decisions we made a long time ago, or conclusions we came to after some time. Is it fair that we base our present life on over previous decisions? Have the situation change now? Should we need to rethink about our believes? Take some time now to reevaluate your choices.

A) Think of a person u really hate last time.
Why did u hate him? Do you still hate him now? Has time wash awaythe hatred? Is there a need to seek revenge? Do u think u might be at fault also?

B) Think of a person you used to love.
Is she still with you now? Or has she moved on? Is it worth waiting for her? Can you still love her and accept the fact that she's no longer yours? Does she even care about u now?

C) Think of something you belive in (religion) or any principle u hold on to.
Do you still have the passion for that believe after so long? Is it feasible to hang on to ur princple at your current age and/or enviroment? Do u suffer just to hold on to these believes? Is it time to renew your faith?

D) Think of your goal in life.
Are you on the right track now? Is that goal even possible from where you're at now? Need to find a new goal?

give youself some time to re think each of the above. Gain new insights, talk to yourself. There's no right or wrong answer, there's no need to lie to yourself. Give yourself, a better reason to live, make your life clearer. You'll be happy to wake up tomorrow : D

Possession Obsession

I carved my name on your heart,
and stained the floor wif blood.
To etch my image on your brain,
I tore your head apart.

I place your fingers on my tongue,
to taste your skin again.
I hold your body in my arms,
Dancing in the rain.

Consumed your flesh and drank your blood,
In unison we will be,
It wouldn't have to end this way,
If you had loved me.....

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Potions, lotions , spells and bells,
Love charms hangs on the shelves.
Poker , tarots caculates,
the two of us are binded by fate,

we're millennium's golden couple
our love will blossom and quintupled
cause our horoscope corresponds,
our stars above perfectly bonds.

we are indeed the perfect match,
our destinys will tightly latch.
now I only hope and pray,
that like me, you're also gay.

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I wake everyday wanting to see you,
When I close my eyes your face emerge.
Your beautiful eyes, ur nose and mouth,
each delicately sculpt in my mind.
I want to see you.

I wake up with hope of seeing you,
what will you wear today?
Will you present you charming smile?
Or do I get to see your cool depressing look?
I need to see you

We don't need to talk,
Our eyes will communicate,
mine speaks the ancient language of love to you,
can you feel it from afar?
I craved to see you

But
Do you even know I exist?
Please turn your head one day,
and look at me...

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3 expressions from a murderer, a superstitious gay and a stalker... all finding their one true love.... Have you found yours yet?

Adog

The word adult suspiciously sounds like "a dog", which day by day I found it to be more true.
Reaching adulthood is a easy, realising it is hard... and painful. To the little kids we used to be, we see adults as people who have freedom and money. They seems to be under no control from school or their parents, and they seems to be rich.. at least richer than us kids. And they work for money, thats great cause no one pays a kid to study.
What's so bad about adulthood then? First thing is our job. Working has no school holidays. There's no fucking 3 months break every year. Most of the 9 to 5 jobs are 9am to 5pm work in office, 5pm to 1am work at home. Working for money is damn sad I tell you, end of the day when u get your hard earn pay, you'll feel guilty for spending it. You'll calculate every $50 as a single day of work.
Work, unlike school has no variation, its jus repetition. Day in day out you do the same fucking job... FOREVER. You don't get to graduate, you wouldn't get into another level, its jus the same fuck shit everyday. Think of it as repeating sec 5 till 50 years old. Thats how it feels like. And don't tell me that some jobs are interesting, I'm doing 3D animation and i still find it boring, i wonder how factory workers survive.
If you don't do your job well, you get fired. Getting fired is not another chance of a 3 months holiday. Being jobless is like being handicapped, except people wouldn't offer sits to u in the MRT. The word "jobless" makes my balls strink. Think of the unpaid bills, think of how to survive everyday spending the minium amount, think of how to get back ou my feet again, think of job opportunities, think of changing job..... Everyday, you will wakr up feeling worthless, unwanted and poor. You parents will most likely tell you to go and find a job instead of lying around at home, but deep inside, you are afraid to go out and get rejected over and over again.
That's the reason why you see adogs working hard at their job, putting in most of their energy. Most of the adog hold on to shitty jobs, bastard bosses and miserable pay just to survive. You don't want to know how fuck up it is to wake up to know that u have to work everyday.
The kid in us will say, " hey thats what happens to everyone, but I'm different"
Fuck you. Its time to wake up. You are no different.
We always believe that we are special, that we will grow up to be rich and beautiful.... bla blah blah. Sad to say nope, we are not. If by the age of 20 you find that you are not richer than your peers, have no special abilities, am not a celebrity have not been bitten by any radiactive animals, Then welcome to the gang, you are officially an adog.
When we are young, we live everyday in hope , cause everyday is a step near to being rich and handsome but one day you will realise that hey," i have grown up" Then you will realised that you are still poor and ugly. That's the moment of adoghood, where your world crashes on you, and the mirror of hope shatters into many pieces. From that day on, you will live everyday depressed.
So what happen after that? You realised that you have missed your chance to be different, you have lost your golden childhood. Your next stupid step will be getting married in hope of having a kid. The kid will be and extension of your hopes and your second chance at adoghood.
The vicious cycle will carry on....

Shaded View

Yanni is borned yellow pupils, he sees the world in a happy shade of yellow. Being a morning person, he wakes up everyday full of zest, looking forward to live the day to the fullest. He's optimistic, fun and humorous, always having the time of his life.

Bob, on the other hand, has blue pupils. He is constantly depressed. Bob felt that everyone is condemning him for every little thing he does. Growing up full of fear of the world, Bob never felt loved or appriciated in his life before.

Randy is an angry man, he's always full of rage. He's constantly pissed off, in his world of red. Through his red pupils, he can't see eye to eye with anyone. Deep inside, he's fucking dissappointed with the world, but can only show it throught his anger.

Now Sarah is a special girl, she's unlike the rest. Instead of an iris with a single tone, hers is a beautiful array of every possible color. She feels a wide range of emotions constantly. What made Sarah so special is her ability of empaty. She can see the world in other person's color and feel connected with them.

One day, Sarah was on her way home when she bump into the other three. Yani was couldn't stop laughing, Bob was crying on the ground and Randy was shouting out valugrities.

Sarah: "Oh dear, wat happen?"
Yani : "oh its so funny, u should have been here. Bob walked into an open drain cover and fell. Its hilarious...."
Bob : "I'm so stupid, i can't do anything right....."
Randy: "Wat's his fucking problem? Bob here is injured and he jus laugh at him? And that stupid bob, such a faggot, can he speak up for himself?"

At that moment, it was clear to Sarah. Seeing in yellow, she could see that its indeed a funny sight. From a blue point of view, she's sad that bad things always happens to bob. In a red perspective, Sarah was dissapointed that both yani and bob counldn't help bob... she even more disappointed that randy didn't help out. These situations has to stop, she have to help them understand how they can live in harmony.

To Yani she said, " Yani, i understand its a rather comical situation to you but there are times where laughter is not the best medicine. Happiness build on others tradegy is despicable. You must learn to be more serious.

Then to Bob she spoke, " Bob, bad things happens to you because you allow them to. You make a big ho ha out of all your failures. Learn to appriciate your success. You seems to fail more cause you couldn't forgive youself when you fail.

Finally at Randy she shouted, "You complained at everyone all the time, did u even take a look at yourself? Have u done anything to improve the situations you are in? Has your anger and complains solve any problems?"

The three of them stood there dumbfounded. She hit the nail on the head. No one has understand how they felt till now. The three of them thanked her for changing their thinking and promised to changed....

That night Sarah recieve a call from Bob, " you bitch," he sobbed," I was thinking about wat you said and it doesn't make any sense at all. How could you trick me into admitting that i cause shit to happen to myself ? Do you know how stupid you make me feel? Now I'm unlucky, stupid and weak... thanks for nothing bitch!"

Before Sarah could react to that called, Yani sent her an SMS. "Its kinda funny what happen jus now. It turns out to be a big joke. Come to think of it,you must be lying when you said that you find the situation funny too, cause I don't see you laughing at all. Stop acting like you know everything. The worse person there was you. You bloody hypocrite."

Then the phone rang again, this time its Randy," You made a fool out of me just now you bitch! Letting me think how stupid i am. Did you do anything to help also? No! Instead you lectured us for no reason, what have we done to you. Go mind your own business."

Sarah is devastated. What's happening? She's only trying to help. Tears poured from her colourful eyes. Tears of every color, tears that convay every emotion.... Sarah relised something. You can changed a person's thinking, but you can never change his point of view.

Till this day, you can see Sarah alone, away from the crowd. She have seen through everything. There's no need to change the world, no one wants to be changed anyway. The world has been the same till this day cause it will never be changed. Sarah's beautiful eyes has turn dull by the truths she've seen. It will never shine again.

Sometimes, when she think of back of that day, tears will flow from her eyes. When sunlight caught the tears hanging on her cheek, it splits into a beautiful spectrum of every shades. At that moment, Sarah felt she was true to herself again......

When the credits roll

"All the world is a stage, and all the men and women merely players. They have their exits and their entrances, And one man in his time plays many parts."
Shakespeare's Hamlet

"I see me on my deathbed,
lying dead and cold,
then I took a step back,
and watch the credits roll."

monotone

I grew up on tv. When i was young